Yesterday, he damage the car again... despite many reminders...
The feeling of angry, scared,sad,heart pain hit me REALY HARD!
the feeling really got me really depress and dishearten !
I cant really say much cos his friend is in the car...
Have to care for his pride and etc ... i kept quiet! but of course, i did not talk and the atmosphere is really bad!
While driving home, he can still drive in a fast speed and he cant really control the speed.
I really collapse/let go when i am home!
I CRY OUT SO LOUD and SO BADLY Till my mum got a shocked!
Cry till my eye are swollen!
All crying stopped but it restarted this morning again !
All becos of a friend of mine said, if i am his gf, he will break with me...
usually when he damage the car, mum will nag non stop... but cos of my cry so badly, mum did not scold... she just nagged @ him... this morning...
I might be PMSing, but it really make me tot of , am i really able to trust him? to be able to take care of me... for the rest of my life...
i can even feel that, actually my parent is also worried about the rest of life as they also worried that if he is able to tag good care of me...
Lost and confuse is what i feel right now ..
Dislike it + hate it when people say i am a fierce woman, nv give him pride!
Fuck the worthless pride la ! Pride is to earn not give!
I did not purposely wan to make him no face in front of any1... i am already reaching my toleration ! reaching my limit!
Dun understand why ppl see things only @ the surface...
NO 1 ever think that i feel pain in my heart also ....
No news from him the whole day, but i seriously dun wish to talk much... but still wish to know if he is ok...
天下那么多人死。。。 为什么不是我死。。。
